Los Angeles
Los Angeles: an American coastal city. Your hair—
my mouth is, kind of, imagining it.
(Object-subject/my own mouth’s numbness, I need this/you are
from California.) I need to, I need to think harder about my signifiers.
I need to look at my hair and my makeup
and think about, how does she see me from seeing my hair and makeup?
I need to think. I think I need a moment.
Maybe I am rushing,
I know I am rushing but also
I’m listening over and over to the same dance song. I know I’m rushing
I know I am oh but oh but oh god. And that is all just
tense or what. and this is just god and not about needing
or, this is just lushness and fullness and blood/this is what is.
And if it means an open umbrella, or that, or
glottal or hunkers, that
is fine this is perfect/harpishly plucking your perfect ahh. Or whatever.
And you know. I have questions when our hands touch
and thirstless and I am just oh,
a thistle and hairbrush.
- Alexandra Casanave